the blog is half full

well, we are halfwIMG_7849ay through the blogging every day for a month challenge, and i am struggling a bit.  i kind of feel all talked out.  is there anything else to say about me?  (ha, if i were only that simple)  but really, i just don’t know what to blog about.

i thought that maybe all the extra followers were making me nervous, but let’s face it, as the mother of two young kids, i have people watching me ALL THE TIME.

i think it is partially busy-ness.  i feel like i have a lot to do (finishing my nutcracker costume, laundry, mopping, bathing) and i am anxious about getting sucked into the computer for so long that i don’t get the rest of my chores done.

sometimes i crave time to disengage, to not think so hard?  i spend a lot of time thinking, thinking, thinking, thinking, and worrying about my boys.  i don’t talk a lot on this blog about their autism and the challenges we face at home and at school, but it is really challenging.

i am actIMG_7906ually surprised by how much more stressful it is having them both in school.  i had anticipated feeling somewhat liberated by having some “me” time, but so far it hasn’t been the vacation i was expecting.  the squirm has gotten more and more anxious about school as the semester has progressed and i don’t know why.

my concern is that he slipping through the cracks a little in his gen-ed classroom.  there are 22 kids in there, 17 of them boys. the squirm is terrified to speak louder than a whisper at school, so my suspicion is that he gets left to his own devices a lot since he isn’t causing any problems.  he brings home a lot of incomplete worksheets and almost blank sheets of paper.  i think mr p and i really need to get our concerns organized and find someone to meet with at the school, or maybe a consultant to bounce ideas off of.  we have even tossed around the idea of driving the kids into austin to one of the private school designed specifically for kids with autism.

i wish i knew what the solution was.



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kind of eccentric artsy type raising two boys in texas.
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8 Responses to the blog is half full

  1. NotAPunkRocker says:

    I hope you are able to meet with them and come up with a plan soon.

  2. rarasaur says:

    Poor Squirm. I’m gonna send him good vibes and hope that you find a solution that works for him– and you!

  3. likeitiz says:

    Hi Phrogmom. I took care of an autistic nephew years ago when he was between the ages of 5 to 9. There was nothing in Manila in the way of the right services to help him. So my brother and sister-in-law reluctantly let him live with us in Northern California for 5 school years. He would go back to them for the holidays and summers.

    I went to interview a lot of schools and services. He was in a private school for a year. That was not so great. We decided to go for our public school. The psychologist working with us met with them to discuss his needs. We ended up with him attending Lindamood Bell after school everyday. We also found a language therapist. The school provided speech therapy and special PE for his low upper body tone. I was involved a lot in his school life. And home life was different than when we were raising our daughter. He got very attached to her by the way.

    Over the years, he went back to Manila, was schooled in an American-style school. But he would return during the summers for intensive adjucnct services. We also enrolled him in some socialization classes.

    He’s on his second year of college now. He chise to go to British Columbia. We look back at our years having him and we can only hope we helped do the right thing for him.

    I hope you’ll find the right path for your sons. It’s a challenge, navigating in a world not oriented to them fully. But it’s doable.

  4. hakea says:

    Is it possible for your boys to go to a mainstream school or an additional needs unit within a mainstream school? I work at a public school where 10% of the children have autism and they are all mainstreamed. I won’t say it’s an easy job for the teachers but all of the students are treated as individuals and get most of their educational needs met.

    That class sounds too big! A class full of children with autism becomes their ‘normal’ and I’m not sure that’s healthy or holistic.When I worked in a school for children with autism, there was a maximum of 7 students per class with a teacher and an aide. With a class that big the children would be triggered by each others’ behaviours and pick up a few new habits.

    I hope you are able to sort it out and that you have options that work for you.

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