i really don’t know what is wrong with me. some days, the moment i stop running at full tilt, i start crying. and i don’t mean the beautiful glistening tears way that man ray portrays it. i mean the ugly red puffy eyed, blotchy, snotty way that is hard to hide on the next errand you have to run.
i am still can’t decide whether my new medication isn’t working at all (and i am just really like this when not medicated) or if the medication is making me unhinged.
all of this is complicated by the reality of my day to day life. i am amazed and grateful for the positive impact my kids’ schools are having on their lives, but man i am tired of driving four hours a day, and sitting in the car for another six.
mr p is much better at the commuting thing. he is able to find a place to spend time while he is in town, and he manages to get work done. i float around aimlessly, uncomfortable being surrounded by people and noise and constant movement.
the good news is that i found an office to rent to use as a studio while i am in town during the day!! it is 5 minutes away from the squirt’s school, so i won’t be wasting time driving around. my step-mom has been calling this my “laura cave.” the office is definitely cave-like. a small windowless room off of a confusing set of hallways. but i am still super excited!
** sorry for the delay in posting this, i wrote it on the 28th of june and then it slipped my mind (something that has been happening to me quite a bit lately).
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Oh, I am so glad to hear about the office space!
I get you on the tearful moods. Im considering using the mood tracker app to see if it’s a pattern or something else.
When do you go back to the doctor?
Lots of things to be agitated wth and to be thankful for here.
I’m glad that school is working out for the boys and that you’ve found a place of your own to hang out in between times.