i think it is probably commonplace for parents to study their offspring, looking for a glimmer of themselves within. does he have my artistic bent? is he a future musical savant??
when something unusual crops up, like autism, or other developmental issues, it is also probably common to look to oneself for the contributing genes. there are some personality traits (ie: neuroses) mr p and i have in common; discomfort in crowds, dislike of loud and annoying noises, fear of chaos, especially chaos involving crowds and loud, annoying noises. whether the squirm inherited these traits from us, or just learned them, it is clear he shares our predilection to homebody-ness.
the therapists talk a lot about “transitions,” and i know both boys have been mentioned in connection with having a difficult time with them. i am thinking i know which one of us that comes from! *raises hand*
i am not sure what it is about summer that turns me into a crazy mess, but something about lack of scheduling doesn’t work well for me. it was much worse when i was a single teacher in houston. there the days stretched, endlessly unstructured, until i couldn’t tell what day of the week it was.
obviously having mr p and the boys has helped to ground me in a lot of ways, but i still feel the same un-moored anxiety when the final school bell rings for the summer. if i wasn’t an inhibited, uptight adult, would i react like the kids when my schedule spins out of my control? it is sometimes tempting to throw myself on the floor and have a good wail.