approach avoidance

sorry i have been mia, it has been kind of crazy around here and i haven’t been feeling my best.  i am thinking that this is a good place to vent?  feel free to skip the next paragraph if you aren’t in the mood!

itjustreallyirksmethatihadcrampsforweeks. thenigottheworstperiodever. mytestscame backnormaleventhoughistillfeelcrappy. mybroccolihasspots. theotyesterdaysaid”ofcourseheisgettingot, idontevenneedtoscorethetest.” “wedecidedweagreewiththe diagnosisofautism.” idon’treallyliketakingcellolessons.isthatterrible? thedogatemydiapers. myfaveteacherforsquirm’sclassisleaving. ifeelfat,old,ugly,impatient,notgoodenough. lonelybluecranky.

so, my broccoli doesn’t look very healthy.  the leaves have some light spots.  do any of my expert gardeners know what it could mean?

i actually do feel better, thank you for letting me get that out.  even though i get down in the dumps, i still feel optimistic.  i think the squirm’s new school is going to be good for him, even though the diagnosis of autism makes me uncomfortable/sad.  i am excited about him learning new things.

spring’s arrival has given me more energy and i am enjoying spending more time outside.

i am feeling more inspired to work in my art journal, even though i haven’t had much time.  more pictures of that later!  i am loving photographing the boys in the yard.  they are so photogenic (ok, maybe i am biased).

 

About phrogmom

kind of eccentric artsy type raising two boys in texas.
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9 Responses to approach avoidance

  1. hakea says:

    Hey phrogmom

    If that was my broccoli I would be thinking it needs some mulch and some more water, but I’m no expert.

    Sorry about the cello lessons. Is it because you are getting frustrated with yourself?

    You’ve got a lot on with your little fellas. Although there’ll be lots of intervention and planning and organising around the label of autism, you know what it’s like to be different and quirky and brilliant at lots of things, and you’ll be able to teach them to appreciate their own strengths and abilities.

    • phrogmom says:

      thank you for this awesome comment!! it lifted my spirits. i think with the cello….i would rather spend the funds and time doing something that gets me more out there in the world, connecting with others….and it just kind of seems like work, work i can’t even do with the kids around, which makes it hard. i talked with mr p about it and he understood that now might not be the time. he is also going to sign me up for a children’s book illustrating class this summer! how amazing is that??? i love him!!

  2. kloppenmum says:

    I hope things are looking a bit more manageable today. Would love to say something brilliant, but hakea beat me to it. 🙂

  3. Am I a bad person for laughing at the dog bit? lol
    Loved the sun flare photo… *not-too-squeezy squeeze* until things get better, and they will. Trust me, I’m a doctor*

    *habitual liar.

    😉

    • phrogmom says:

      absolutely not, i prefer people to be slightly tickled as opposed to hit in the face with gloom. what’s funny is that the dog did it twice! the cult diapers both times!!

  4. kaet says:

    Still catching up, but I hope the world looks far better today!

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