i want to want to

swimsuit season

so, there was a time when i was really in shape. not just a little, but a lot in shape.  in houston i was on a masters swim team that practiced at 6:00 am, and i got up and went to those practices before going to work.  i trained for the ms 150, completing many bike rides with routes in excess of 50 miles.  i competed in triathlons, both sprint and olympic distance….i even swam the swim leg in a half ironman, helping my team win third place.

even after i moved out here i still stuck with it at first.  i did the tough cookies danskin training program and overcame my fear of the open water swim.  i used to stick my bike on the rack and ride the highways after work.

then something happened to me.  i guess i could blame it on getting married.  something about being finally loved and content has decreased my need to prove myself in athletic contests, or get up at 5 in the morning for crazy training sessions.

having a baby was the second nail in my fitness coffin.  my plans to stay fit during pregnancy, thus ensuring myself an easy delivery, evaporated when i was faced with the combined fatigue of growing a baby and getting up at 4:00 to open a starbucks store.

me at the danskin tri

so guess what, the baby’s out, i have a gym membership, the weather has turned balmy….but no.  i just can’t motivate myself to get out there and get myself back in shape.  i know i would feel better, and i know it would sure be nice to fit back into my favorite pair of jeans.  i really want to want to, but i just don’t…..anyone else??